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What I Am
01:37
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2. |
Cancer Candy
05:17
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Well do you remember how far this family feel when we had to put down the dog?
Well just imagine the depths that we could reach, if we woke up and found out that you had gone?
We'd sink deeper than marina's trench with our captain lost at sea
You are the savior to our metropolis and it's not yet time for you to leave
So don't try to bury your shame, down deep beneath the waves
You can find the surface, if you just allow the waves to break
Over the heads of those who deny that this vice has the potential to take your life
So please daddy please just try
Oh captain, my captain I still view you as superman
But bleeding gums and a diseased tongue should make you understand
That super powers are not found in that tin your hand
But through this family, to which you've given all that you can
My man, you know you gave us everything we had, so please just let us do the same for you.
Goddamn I know how good that fix feels dad, but look at all this shit that it's put you through
And I know it's hard for you to show your smile when that shit has fucking stained your teeth
But just listen to your begging child, it's something that you no longer need
So why can't you just drop it? Don't you know it's eating you away?
Just think of the disappointment, that your death will bring to my child's face
No I can't watch you slowly poison yourself, so you can go and put that shit on somebody else
You can hate but we know I'm just thinking of your health
Oh captain, my captain I still view you as superman
But bleeding gums and a diseased tongue should make you understand
That super powers are not found in that tin your hand
But through this family, to which you've given all that you can
Oh father please I beg you, I'm not ready to watch you die
What the fuck am I supposed to do without your love in my life?
Just think of what it'd do to momma, please don't make us fucking bury you
Why can't you see that fix isn't worth it? That you're living your life through abuse?!
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Winter is here again
It's about the fourth time this year, and we are all just praying for it's end
Yet I hope that November comes back in full swing
Cause this spring has clouded our minds, it has taken over everything
And don't you see that somethings has gone so very wrong
This snow has been falling for just too damn long
And I need a change of season not a change of heart
Give me one good reason that this flame, has grown any dimmer from it's spark
Who had any idea that spring could be so dark
Or that a dream of summer could leave so many scars
Now you found your faith in me
You shot me up like heroin while I took you in as ecstasy
But that rusted needle broke off in your arm
Every remedy only caused us harm
I guess substitution can only be taken so far
And even though I may be just a simple man
I will not pass on by, without making my stand
Against a world that spit me out, and covered me in lies
That watched me fill my soul with doubt, and put poison in my eyes
So if I die today, well at least I know that I tried
You always stuck around when the softest parts would start
But you ran away when the lyrics got harsh
Now I know that you only find love in your own art
You claimed this flame was dead and let these mountains grow dark
Led the wolves right to my bed and left the righteous to starve
Now you'll find that this dog's bite is so much worse than it's bark
And now I've grown and can finally see
That the best part of you was the worst part of me
My bones may be shattered and my veins may still ache
But with every step I take the earth will quake
I've drained all the poison and all the acid from lungs
And now I truly know what I am capable of
My scars have healed over and my hide has
Because now I know that I, I am enough
And I need a change of season not a change of heart
Give me one good reason that this flame, has grown any dimmer from it's spark
Who had any idea that spring could be so dark
Or that a dream of summer could leave so many scars
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4. |
Oathkeeper
02:25
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No more nooses
No more knives
No more pointless, loss of life
And I swear that, I will fight
I will fight
To bring an end to suicide
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5. |
Encouragement
01:50
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But I'll go on so all you bastards can see
The pain is what is encouraging me
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6. |
February
05:03
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Lets go back to the lake made for us
Can we turn time around if we dive deep enough?
The undertow took you so far out?
Just breathe, breathe, breathe
You never liked to stay still
But thats no excuse for leaving
Please wake up from your peaceful sleep
Just breathe, breathe, breathe
Now there are snowflakes freezing to my teary eyes
As I’m saying my final good bye
You left us here alone
Without you this house is not home, its just a shell where we exist
Now that February is back, it gets colder every year
and every thought of you fades every moment you’re not here
You can take all the memories, take all the laughter
cuz I don’t want it if you’re not here
I know its dumb but every time the sun shines, I think of you
Always begging me to come outside when I was in my room
I don’t know why but every time I cry I look up to the sky and wonder if your looking down on’ me
Would you be proud of the way I’ve come along since you’ve been gone, i try to carry on
Im sorry if I complain but
I can hear you out there after the sun and you both went away
Why is it this cold in march?
Is it just to match my mood?
After going through losing you
And I can hear mom
she’s cryin’ in your room again
why’d you go and break her heart?
And I can hear dad he’s begging god to get you back
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7. |
Glass Bones//Paper Skin
02:57
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8. |
Four Lane-Memorial
05:50
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I walked down to the parkway today
I looked both ways and all four lanes were busy
I thought I had found my escape
But the last thing that anyone needs is to wake up in an early grave
I went through every bottle, I researched every pill
I felt my breath shorten as my blood began to spill
I screamed oh dear god if you won't solve this than who will?
It keeps on getting colder but never cold enough to kill
And I'm so sorry for what I've done
Forgive my mother for killing your first born son
I'm sure that he meant the world to you
But his broken little heart just couldn't pull through
And I hope you know, that life goes on
It just isn't worth living when you can't even sing one fucking song
So please remember me, when I am gone
Don't stop writing just keep singing, and remember where I went wrong
I bought a .44 magnum, and pressed the barrel to my heart
I thought bullets would solve my problems or make some lovely modern art
But then I thought of how much that I would miss the summer air
Of how I would leave a family behind who was right fucking there
And I hope you know, that life goes on
It just isn't worth living when you can't even sing one fucking song
So please remember me, when I am gone
Don't stop writing just keep singing, and remember where I went wrong
So if you need a reminder that this life goes on
Just read the name on my headstone
and remember where I went wrong
And I hope you know, that life goes on
It just isn't worth living when you can't even sing one fucking song
So please remember me, when I am gone
Don't stop writing just keep singing, and remember where I went wrong
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Nervous Laughter
05:13
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Oh every time I inhaled, oh how I loved the feel
Of being one step closer, being one step closer getting killed
But what I didn't realize, when I prayed for fucking death
Was the life that I would leave behind, and the ones I would forget
So even though my lungs are caving in
I won't stop fighting until I can breath again
And even though my throat is closing up
I won't stop fighting til I can give back my love
Falling on your sword, will never leave you with any kind words
And I know that your hurt, but trust me it could be so much worse
Now I spent every minute, trying to choke myself out
Thinking that every last breath I took was what filled my lungs with doubt
I was so sick and tired, of letting everyone I loved down
But those very same people were the ones I couldn't live without
So even though my bones are wearing down
I won't pass on without making a sound
Now even though my veins are draining out
I won't live my life six feet under the ground
Chorus
Falling on your sword, will never leave you with any kind words
And I know that your hurt, but trust me it could be so much worse
And I will never see
A moment in this life where our hearts should cease to beat
So please, just stay on the line with me
We'll prove that there is love in this life
We'll move the earth beneath our own two feet
Falling on your sword, will never leave you with any kind words
And I know that your hurt, but trust me it could be so much worse
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